Showing posts with label sentimental. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sentimental. Show all posts

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

An advice got on time & I needed most...


         I have already told about a friendship that I had lost one day. You might have read it here and here. Today, I came to remember again about her. Two months ago, she got married. Happily got married to a nice guy. I am really happy for her.
          Her marriage... that’s what I want to tell now about. After we had broken our relationship, we didn’t kept any contact to each other. Even though we had some unexpected meetings in between, they were not sufficient to hold back a broken friendship. But, when her marriage came near, she tried to contact me first. Unfortunately, I couldn’t attend her calls as I was at work. And, I couldn’t call her back also. May be it’s my ego. But, I was sure that, this call was for inviting me for marriage. And how can I call her back and ask for the invitation? Let her call again. That was what I have thought that time.
          No any call came, but I got an e-mail from her would- be. That was their wedding invitation card. Oh! Why couldn’t she invite me? And he and me don’t know each other yet.
          There was not at all a thought of, me attending that wedding. When my other friends (who are also invited) called up and asked about how I am supposed to go, and how we can buy gifts (In all weddings, we share and buy a nice gift), I didn't got anything to tell them. Actually except two of them not aware of what happened between us. So, I choose to stay Hmmm...
          When Athi called me up and asked about if I am going or not, I said it. "I am not going da. She hasn’t even invited me properly. And you know all that happened..". She said “It’s okay, if you feel that’s right, then don’t go. I am planning to go by this time and this way.(she mentioned the time and the respective bus).
          Then the day came. I had tuition on the same day. And I was getting ready for going the tuition centre. My students are supposed to come after less than one hour.
          Deep inside, something was disturbing me. Yes, it’s about her. I really felt bad for not wishing her Good Luck. I just typed a greeting to her. Also mentioned that, I won’t be able to attend the wedding – some reasons. This made me feel a bit better, and continued my preparation for the class.
          Everything got changed after I have got the call from my brother Sibi. Not a blood relation, but a stronger bond that made of love. He asked me the same; “you not going?”
Me: (Silence)
He:  Hey, what you are doing? if you don’t want to, then don’t go. But, have you thought about how long you going to keep the distance? Today is her marriage, and after that, she will go her way and you on yours. What if you not attended her wedding? She also won’t attend your’s. And what you both gain from that? Ok listen, whatever have happened between you both, just forget it. Just remember that, you both had a good relation sometime before. and today is a very important day for her. If you don’t attend today, you can’t do it any other day. And every one forget all rivalries when Marriage/ death comes.
Me left blank.... I just  got what I needed most at that time..a perfect advice on correct time. I was totally confused, and now he made everything clear. Yeah, you are right. I don’t like a chance of regretting myself some day, If I didn’t go today. Yes..I have to go. And I will...
          But I had my students waiting for me. When the decision is made, the solutions were coming easily. I had gone to my class, had a one and a half hour class, and gave them a break. Then I rushed to the temple, where the marriage was supposed to be held at. I have reached there on time, had seen my friends. Also him, who made me do this, Who told me what I was supposed to do, who taught me hold back my silly fight and ego and give cheers to one of my best friendship... I could see how he happy he was. Even though he didn’t mention anything I could know that.. Thank you my dearest brother and ever loving friend.. With out you, I couldn't have done it..
          Athi was also happy for my coming. She told me that, you just leave all that bad feelings you had. Just forget about it, and from today, you may not be continuing your relation with her, but you just don’t have to keep the burden of those fights anymore. Keep yourself happy always..
          We enjoyed the wedding celebrations fully. I had greeted her Best wishes. I am sure, she too was so happy on this. My presence. She asked me, “you have messaged me, that you won’t...?”. “ Yeah, but I couldn’t”- was my reply.
          Just after the function, I left there to continue my class. I want to thank my students also. They completely agreed to adjust.
          Thus, it ended like this.. as I had said in one of my previous post, ‘that may be because of the warmth of a good relation which we had once....’

Thursday, August 2, 2012

A message to my loving brother..

    My loving brother,


Some times, I remember the days when you were a little one.. A very little, cute one.. We , your sisters really made silly fights to make you tell each of us, that whom  you love  the most..And most of the times you came to my side apart Biji and Chikku. I was  so happy and proud then...

  I remember those days when you joined your nursery.. On the first day, when we got you there and started to leave, you were crying so..much. you may not be knowing,but I really could't stand that sight. And from the very next day, I used to come with you, and stayed back with you there, so that you feel happy and safe.

 I remember, that day when you have to take an injection at the clinic near your nursery, it was me who was with you. I was scared thinking that, you may cry, and can't bear the pain. But, to my surprise, to every one's surprise, you didn't cried at all.

 I remember  your  first stage performance.. you were looking so cute, in the fancy dress as the hunter, with black powder on your body,and the dress made of leaves.. I used to say the audience near to me "It's my brother..It's my brother". Your mimicry performances in such a little age, made so proud of you.. and also remember the drama competition two years back, that made me cry too..you have won the 'best  actor award'.. your performance was simply "superb"..
I remember, those days, when you need me for each and everything other than others. Even for covering your note books,and writing your name on name slips..

One day, I found my elder brother in you, when you waited for me at the bus stop, as I was late from college... You don't know, how much important you really are for me..

I remember that day also, when we had that quarrel..and spoke about things, that shouldn't be spoke. But, I thought it was another silly fight we used to have often. But, now I feel that, I was wrong.. That day, started the bad part in my life.. You have taken all my words seriously, and started avoiding me. You started rejecting the things I give you. 
  
 I feel really so..bad my dear. I miss those wonderful days..when we played together, played Quiz together, cracked jokes together..and our silly fights together.. I really miss you my  one and only little brother..
   
You know, after some more months, I won't be here with you all. I will be getting married, and will go that home. So, I really want to have some more precious moments with you.. I have tried a lot to solve the problem. But, I think, you are not even noticing that. If you feel that, you can forgive me, then please pardon me.. I am so..sorry for that day..so sorry for everything, I have done wrong.. I love you  so..so..much dear..
  
The Rakhi day is coming, so, wishing you a happy rakhi day..  I want the Rakhi of love always tied on your arm..



With lots of love, 
Your elder sister..

Sunday, February 12, 2012

A wound that not healed yet....


        
Some people come to our lives without any intimation,and dominate our life within a short period. I had (yes it is past now) a friendship just like this. She came to my life when I joined my higher secondary school. From the first day,within 5 minutes we became friends..Every other students in our class thought we were already friends from childhood. It was a relation that most of them envy about...
          We were together for everything. Walked with holding hands always. It was she who was more dominant. Me always said to be adjustable(others says) and never said “No” to her  for anything. Whatever  it might be, I was always with her.
          It was very late, that I came to know her reality. How she fooled me, by doing things against me when I blindly trust her..and.....the bond had broken when I knew the truth. It was a real shock for me, and I could’t get over it till now. What was wrong with her..?Why did she did this to me...?
          After that also, I got several good friends..but this bad experience changed me so that, even being friendly to everyone, I can’t trust them blindly. Now I can’t open up fully to anybody...
          We never have to hurt the people who love you..never have to break their trust, at any cost...The wound made in their heart can never be healed...